Dear Lisa,
Its been a while, and I wonder what are you doing right now? I know you won't reply me with words nor voice but it's okay. What I felt for you, I feel it now. Like a giant balloon in my chest, make me hard to breath. You are a good person and a good friend of mine, still I'm asking god why in thousand million people on earth but you are the one had to go?
You told me once, love a person wholeheartedly and the happiness is always there. I did, but something you didn't told me is the price I have to pay, the pain. Its not your fault because we were too young back then.
I thought the life I choose now is better than before but I was wrong. You see, people sometime are crazy, the world we had and the world I have now are so different. Sometime I think and I ask myself where I've done wrong. It just a big big mistake and I hope I can just forget about it.
You see, I feel like a big fat selfish. At least you can tell me something about your day. I will always here to smile at your stories like I used to, I'm promise. Anything would be fine.
What a fucking joke kan?
it's good to have back what we had before. But if they didn't go, we won't be what we are today. we'll have them back at the right time :)
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